In my prayer and study today, I was contemplating Secret Gospel of Mary saying 13:
Mary Said: “When you also pay the ransom, then you will be ransomed, and no longer will you be held hostage.”
This saying seems to be one of the shortest in the Secret Gospel, but holds so much power for our path. We have dialoged in a couple of other forums about suffering. There have been really awesome and beautiful insights. This verse seems to be speaking to suffering and much more.
When I hear or read the word “ransom” my first thought is Yeshua and the beautiful sacrifice and wonderworking he performed at the Crucifixion. My next thought is then, of course, Magdalene and what she endured to be the “Soul of the World” in this movement. For many years I thought that this movement was external and that trusting in Yeshua was enough. Cleaving to the Risen Messiah is essential to our path and a way to break sin (or karmic bonds).
What this verse points out so beautifully is that the movement of the crucifixion is no outside of us, but has to become internal. When we are willing to give our life for our friends; to give ourselves as an offering for God and the people; to make the Light Continuum the purpose of our life, then we take up this cross with Yeshua and begin to pay the ransom for all. I know for myself, when I take this up I also have a completely different perspective on suffering and happiness. Shekinah shows us that all are what is happening and both lead to the enlightenment and liberation of all beings. It is as if Mercy and Severity become a continuum with no beginning and no end – both, in God, are really Compassion.
I believe that from a Gnostic view hostage is seen as being enslaved by the archonic forces and demiurgos. I don’t doubt this, but know that my experience is that when I do not take on the perspective of God and am stuck in self-grasping it is fear, anger, and loss that hold me hostage. I am bound up in the evil inclination and actually have bound myself in chains. Freedom comes from it not being about self, but about Christos and the mending of the world.
These contemplations are coming up really strongly in everything I study lately. I’ve learned that when a theme becomes clear it is because it’s what’s happening in me and it’s what’s happening in my friends and ultimately the world.
One contemplation that is striking me very hard is how can we enact the ransom in our lives? What things can we focus on and spend our time doing that will take us closer and closer to this place of being completely for God and the Light Continuum?
There are obvious things such as community, study, prayer, meditation, etc – but what steps can we take in our lives to take ourselves out of egoistic desire and focus on what is really important?
I look forward to taking this further!